I came out of the appointment and as I headed to labor and delivery, after calling my mom, I texted JoAnn, Katherine and Marissa this message:
"Sorry guys, this is a horrible thing to text but I can't talk right now and I wanted you to know- no heartbeat. I'm on my way to labor and delivery to get induced and deliver a dead baby. I'll call when I can."
In that moment I was sad but also pretty scared and not looking forward to having to go through the labor process. I think it's possibly the meanest part of this- I'm on the labor and delivery floor with all these other moms that are delivering healthy babies and I have to deliver a 16 week old fetus. It feels mean and I really don't want to.
I was comforted by JoAnn's immediate response:
"I'm so sorry. I love you and you can do this. I'm praying"
She knew right away that I needed to hear that encouragement. She knows I'm scared and for some reason, that was comforting.
Keep praying friends- we need it. Marissa summed it up in her response:
"My heart is broken."
Mine too.
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I am so very sorry to read this. Oh dear one, know you are loved. God will provide and now rest and try to rejuvinate. I am sending you every good wish to have your prayers answered. God bless you. Kitty
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